"Who Gone Check Me Boo?!?!"
Yeah that's right Who's gonna check me . . . Well it looks like I'm gonna check myself. I mean what better person to dig in your shyt then yourself. 21 days ago I started my 30 days till Turkey Day Challenge and I was partially there mentally but I think after these last few days I'm completely there and ready to get my arse in gear. I internalize a lot of my feelings & thoughts about my weight, my fitness & reaching my goals and only share them with my homegirl Kendra from time to time. And when I share how I'm feeling then go back and read over all the dayum complaining, b*thcing and moaning that I'm doing I get on my own freaking nerves!! I mean if I was working out with someone and they were doing all that complaining I would dig in their shyt so quick they wouldn't know what hit them so I think its time I do the same thing for myself. Funny how I can dish it, but I can't seem to take my own medicine.
Having been through complete H#LL over the last 6 years why in the world am I allowing myself to participate in such self destructive behavior and mentally tear myself down. Shoot that's what others did to me over the last 6 years and I absolutely HATED IT and I have enjoyed looking back at them and saying "How ya like me now". But my question is why in the Sam H#LL am I doing it to myself?!?! Back then I was made to feel like pure T shyt, like I was inadequate, less than, like I would never succeed, that what I was doing by trying to loose the weight was FOOLISH all in all I was talked about and talked to like a pure T dog and its upsetting just thinking about it. But I made it through so why am I at this crossroads right now. I look in the mirror and all I see and hear are those terrible comments and sometimes I can't shake'em but guess what . . . The Buck Stops Here. . . right here right now!!! There are 6 weeks left in the year and then its time for some serious a$$ kicking on the stage next year, but I'm no longer going to treat my training like I'm in or out of competition season because I'm about to be ON at all times!! Spreading the word of health & fitness is what I want to do and being that I've been through hell and back to get where I am today and where I will be in the future I feel like I'd be a good spokesperson.
Sooooooooooo Kenisha (yes that' my real name hehehe) . . . shake it off and get your ARSE in gear. Either you want it or you do, either you will or you won't be talking about the shyt and b*tching and complaining ain't gonna getcha to where you need to be!!! I've been a prisoner to the negative things people have said and done to me too long and when I broke free from their jail I willing put myself in my own jail by feeding into everything negative I could think of. Well NO MORE!!
ANYTHING WORTH HAVING IS WORTH WORKING FOR
so why aren't I working as hard as I can to get what I DESERVE. . . get to WORK
PROCRASTINATION IS THE ASSASSINATION OF MOTIVATION
what am I waiting for. . . time waits for NO MAN and trust me waiting doesn't make you want it more
ACCOUNTABILITY IS RESPONSIBILITY & RESPONSIBILITY IS ACCOUNTABILITY
I can blame nor hold ANYONE else responsible for my success or failure but MYSELF
FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD!!
I can't continue to pray for success IF I'm not going to do the work & make the sacrifice to get it
Love ya'll and praying for all success for all of us!!
KQ
Hey KQ....well i think you are beating urself up w/o just cause....i think if you look at the journey and regardless of whether you are at where you desire to be....you still have progressed in life...a healthier, leaner, you...and blessing others on the way!
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