No more shoulda, coulda, woulda, gonna or about to. . .

This edict was handed down by Dallas's one & only superstar Kendra :) Like I told ya'll yesterday she's the one who listens to all my insanities because LC ain't trying to hear any of the nonsense that comes out of my mouth. I complain and whine and he looks at me like I'm pure T insane.
But I'm most guilty of saying a lot about what I'm gonna do, about to do, shoulda done, coulda done, or would like to do. Heck doing it gets on my nerves so I know it irritates those closest to me cause trust me I ramble on a lot. So what does that mean. . . it means its TIME OUT for that and it's Time for Action!! I'm not going to talk about anything until I've actually done what it was that I set out to do or I'm in the midst of doing it because it actually upsets me to keep mentioning these things and never completing them. LC said something to me a few weeks ago and I really took it to heart. . . . he said "Now you have to keep the momentum going" and he was absolutely 100% on the money with that one. Not only will I keep the momentum going but it is WAR!! I am very guilty of loving camouflage especially when paired with pink so I've pulled all my camo out of the closet and I'm prolly gonna re-up on a more because I am a soldier and like I said its WAR and I hafta be prepared. Something about stepping out on Faith yesterday and quitting my part-time job has given me a rejuvenated spirit and I'm ready for my success which is within my reach.
 By the way, it's Day 22 (8 more days till Thanksgiving) and I'm still committed to my 30 day challenge. I pray I reach my weightloss goals and I'm doing everything I can to get there but if not I will keep on pushing . . . ummmmmm after Thanksgiving Dinner that is LOLOL!! I have to allow myself 1 day of enjoyment then it's back to business. Oh well I hafta go now because I have a meeting at a personal training studio later and I've got errands to run before then. Ya'll hold it down and I'll talk to ya later
KQ

I QUIT and I couldn't be happier!!

I took my own dayum advice today and I'm making things happen. . . as most of you know I have 2 jobs (my full-time bread & butter and a part-time job that I was using to catch up on some bills and what not). Well for starters neither of these jobs are in the field that I'd like to ultimately find myself one day which is Health & Fitness and that right there is a HUGE problem. Sooooooooooo I QUIT!! That's right I QUIT my part-time job and tomorrow I have a meeting at a personal training studio to hopefully start training there (keep me in your prayers regarding that opportunity).
For years (and I mean years) I've been sitting on my certifications and not training and saying one day, one day, one day. . . WELL TODAY IS THE DAY! I'm tired of putting off tomorrow what can & should be done today. I was planning on doing it around Christmas or the first of the year but I said to H#LL with it and did it today. Now I know it was a hasty move but it felt GREAT!! It's time to walk in my calling and this was the first step.
As always love ya & continuing to pray for your success
KQ

Who Gone Check Me Boo?!?!

Ohhhhhhhhh yes it's bout to be one of those blogs. . . but before I begin let me preface this by saying this is a PG-13 blog so I may give reference to or say a profane word or two. I apologize now if I offend anyone but its not meant to be harmful. . . .oooooooook now that we got that out of the way back to the subject

"Who Gone Check Me Boo?!?!"

Yeah that's right Who's gonna check me . . . Well it looks like I'm gonna check myself. I mean what better person to dig in your shyt then yourself. 21 days ago I started my 30 days till Turkey Day Challenge and I was partially there mentally but I think after these last few days I'm completely there and ready to get my arse in gear. I internalize a lot of my feelings & thoughts about my weight, my fitness & reaching my goals and only share them with my homegirl Kendra from time to time. And when I share how I'm feeling then go back and read over all the dayum complaining, b*thcing and moaning that I'm doing I get on my own freaking nerves!! I mean if I was working out with someone and they were doing all that complaining I would dig in their shyt so quick they wouldn't know what hit them so I think its time I do the same thing for myself. Funny how I can dish it, but I can't seem to take my own medicine. 

Having been through complete H#LL over the last 6 years why in the world am I allowing myself to participate in such self destructive behavior and mentally tear myself down. Shoot that's what others did to me over the last 6 years and I absolutely HATED IT and I have enjoyed looking back at them and saying "How ya like me now". But my question is why in the Sam H#LL am I doing it to myself?!?! Back then I was made to feel like pure T shyt, like I was inadequate, less than, like I would never succeed, that what I was doing by trying to loose the weight was FOOLISH all in all I was talked about and talked to like a pure T dog and its upsetting just thinking about it. But I made it through so why am I at this crossroads right now. I look in the mirror and all I see and hear are those terrible comments and sometimes I can't shake'em but guess what . . . The Buck Stops Here. . . right here right now!!! There are 6 weeks left in the year and then its time for some serious a$$ kicking on the stage next year, but I'm no longer going to treat my training like I'm in or out of competition season because I'm about to be ON at all times!! Spreading the word of health & fitness is what I want to do and being that I've been through hell and back to get where I am today and where I will be in the future I feel like I'd be a good spokesperson. 

Sooooooooooo Kenisha (yes that' my real name hehehe) . . . shake it off and get your ARSE in gear. Either you want it or you do, either you will or you won't be talking about the shyt and b*tching and complaining ain't gonna getcha to where you need to be!!! I've been a prisoner to the negative things people have said and done to me too long and when I broke free from their jail I willing put myself in my own jail by feeding into everything negative I could think of. Well NO MORE!! 

ANYTHING WORTH HAVING IS WORTH WORKING FOR 

so why aren't I working as hard as I can to get what I DESERVE. . . get to WORK

PROCRASTINATION IS THE ASSASSINATION OF MOTIVATION

what am I waiting for. . . time waits for NO MAN and trust me waiting doesn't make you want it more

ACCOUNTABILITY IS RESPONSIBILITY & RESPONSIBILITY IS ACCOUNTABILITY

I can blame nor hold ANYONE else responsible for my success or failure but MYSELF

FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD!!

I can't continue to pray for success IF I'm not going to do the work & make the sacrifice to get it

Love ya'll and praying for all success for all of us!!

KQ