Who Gone Check Me Boo?!?!

Ohhhhhhhhh yes it's bout to be one of those blogs. . . but before I begin let me preface this by saying this is a PG-13 blog so I may give reference to or say a profane word or two. I apologize now if I offend anyone but its not meant to be harmful. . . .oooooooook now that we got that out of the way back to the subject

"Who Gone Check Me Boo?!?!"

Yeah that's right Who's gonna check me . . . Well it looks like I'm gonna check myself. I mean what better person to dig in your shyt then yourself. 21 days ago I started my 30 days till Turkey Day Challenge and I was partially there mentally but I think after these last few days I'm completely there and ready to get my arse in gear. I internalize a lot of my feelings & thoughts about my weight, my fitness & reaching my goals and only share them with my homegirl Kendra from time to time. And when I share how I'm feeling then go back and read over all the dayum complaining, b*thcing and moaning that I'm doing I get on my own freaking nerves!! I mean if I was working out with someone and they were doing all that complaining I would dig in their shyt so quick they wouldn't know what hit them so I think its time I do the same thing for myself. Funny how I can dish it, but I can't seem to take my own medicine. 

Having been through complete H#LL over the last 6 years why in the world am I allowing myself to participate in such self destructive behavior and mentally tear myself down. Shoot that's what others did to me over the last 6 years and I absolutely HATED IT and I have enjoyed looking back at them and saying "How ya like me now". But my question is why in the Sam H#LL am I doing it to myself?!?! Back then I was made to feel like pure T shyt, like I was inadequate, less than, like I would never succeed, that what I was doing by trying to loose the weight was FOOLISH all in all I was talked about and talked to like a pure T dog and its upsetting just thinking about it. But I made it through so why am I at this crossroads right now. I look in the mirror and all I see and hear are those terrible comments and sometimes I can't shake'em but guess what . . . The Buck Stops Here. . . right here right now!!! There are 6 weeks left in the year and then its time for some serious a$$ kicking on the stage next year, but I'm no longer going to treat my training like I'm in or out of competition season because I'm about to be ON at all times!! Spreading the word of health & fitness is what I want to do and being that I've been through hell and back to get where I am today and where I will be in the future I feel like I'd be a good spokesperson. 

Sooooooooooo Kenisha (yes that' my real name hehehe) . . . shake it off and get your ARSE in gear. Either you want it or you do, either you will or you won't be talking about the shyt and b*tching and complaining ain't gonna getcha to where you need to be!!! I've been a prisoner to the negative things people have said and done to me too long and when I broke free from their jail I willing put myself in my own jail by feeding into everything negative I could think of. Well NO MORE!! 

ANYTHING WORTH HAVING IS WORTH WORKING FOR 

so why aren't I working as hard as I can to get what I DESERVE. . . get to WORK

PROCRASTINATION IS THE ASSASSINATION OF MOTIVATION

what am I waiting for. . . time waits for NO MAN and trust me waiting doesn't make you want it more

ACCOUNTABILITY IS RESPONSIBILITY & RESPONSIBILITY IS ACCOUNTABILITY

I can blame nor hold ANYONE else responsible for my success or failure but MYSELF

FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD!!

I can't continue to pray for success IF I'm not going to do the work & make the sacrifice to get it

Love ya'll and praying for all success for all of us!!

KQ

 

Attacked by the NOOK (10days till Turkey Day)

I've been out of sorts these past few days and not really been feeling like myself. I have to admit I was in a pissy mood starting Thursday night and that just wrecked my entire motivation to workout. I hardly slept Thursday so I was unable to wake up early Friday and get going @ my normal 630-7am so I decided I'd get a workout in midday but I was soooooooooo dayum tired I ended up taking a nap and that screwed the entire plan up. Then some of LC's co-workers invited me to a birthday party so I decided to hang out for a lil while . . . here's a pic from the evenings shenanigans. . .

It was a GREAT time and I'm glad I decided to get up and get dressed and hang with people for a change LOLOL!! So on Saturday I had planned to drive to New Haven, CT to visit one of my favorite stores IKEA and then I had a meeting with a trainer I'm thinking about working with for next years competition season. For starters we need to celebrate the fact that I got to New Haven & IKEA without getting lost. I am seriously directionally challenged so we're thankful for small miracles. Then I went to meet the trainer but we got our plans a little crossed and he was away at a show. Oh well there's always next weekend . . . so I headed back home and thought about going to the gym before going home but I was so hongry (yes I did say hongry) I couldn't think straight so I went to my beloved Whole Foods & trolled the aisles for a little while then bought a tasty salad, then went home and inhaled it. Guess I was tired from getting up so early Saturday AM that I fell asleep. Then came Sunday and again my plans were foiled. . . I wanted to get up early and workout, grocery shop, grab a few more items from the old house then go to church. Well I got up early and got started on my journey then I sat down for a few then went back to sleep. I mean seriously what's up with all the sleeping?!?! Guess my body decided I needed the rest, so hey I won't complain and just enjoy it.
But yesterday was a good day because LC was coming home from off the road. . .YEAHHHHHHHHH!! So in preparation for his arrival I did some extensive grocery shopping and cooked a special dinner for him that he requested consisting of t-bone steak, broccoli (and cheese sauce made from scratch), twice baked sweet potatoes & texas toast (which I only let him have every blue moon). Let me tell ya'll he devoured it and danced like usual which is a great thing. So we spent last night cuddled on the couch watching Family Guy, Football & the movie "It's Complicated" then off to bed. I was FOR SURE I would be making it to the gym this AM but when my alarm went off and I started getting out of bed that's when the NOOK attacked me. The nook is comfortable place I like to sleep when LC & I are all canoodled up underneath each other and as I tried to get up this AM he pulled me back down and sucked me into the nook. I mean I couldn't say no being that I haven't seen him in almost a week. So I'm a LAZY BUM and I'm really beating myself up for my poor work ethic these last few days. I'm seriously getting back on track because there's only 10days left till Turkey Day and its still possible for me to make my goal.
Holla atcha later
KQ

Challenge Day 16: The ONLY female?!?!

Yesterday I was quiet on ALL social networks including my blog but none the less I still got my workout in. Being that I only had to work 1 job yesterday I decided I'd do my workout midday and that's what I did.
Now I have one BIG question. . . WHY at almost every gym I do to (and I've been to a lot of gyms. . . I actually have 2 memberships here in CT) am I the ONLY female over in the free weights?!?! And why do men look at me like I have 2 freaking heads?!?!? C'mon ladies ya'll gotta join me over there because machines are not always your answer. Free weights are your FRIEND!! They include barbells, dumbbells, weight bars, kettlebells, and the weight benches (flat, incline & decline). Do women not go because of fear, too many men, uncertainty as to what to do or just not interested in lifting free weights? I will admit sometimes there's a few ladies over there with me and we are almost drawn to one another and somehow we'll eventually speak and get to know each other because we know we belong to a small weightlifting sorority hehehe!! But on the serious note I really wish more females would join me in the free weight section because it could mean a world of difference when it comes to the results you're getting. Anyone can sit on a machine and let it control their stability and their range of motion but it takes work to balance yourself, keep your core tight, keep your range of motion steady and under control while executing the exercise. LC is gonna kill me for saying this but he was a machine lover once himself but I got him off of the machines and back into free weights and its made a world of difference. His core has tightened up tremendously, his balance & stability has gotten way better and his power & strength are going through the roof. So with all this being said PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE ya'll start joining me in the free weights and let's show those boys how to really pump some iron and maybe they'll stop looking at me like I'm crazy and do their own dang workouts. And I promise after I get my new video camera I'll start recording some of my workouts and posting them for ya'll to see.
Oh well. . . I'm cutting it short today because I'm feeling a little off. I'm not sick or anything I just feel weak & light headed. Prolly because I need to eat some more cause like a bad girl I waited a long time after my workout to eat and that affects me very badly. So love ya as usual and I'll talk to ya later. OHHHHHHHHH I'll post stats for ya tomorrow!!
KQ