THE DEVIL IS A LIAR . . . 3 days & counting

I know today's blog title is a bit confusing but I'm going to explain it . . . .

Let me preface this by saying I LOVE MY FRIENDS & FAMILY UNCONDITIONALLY but if you're not with me then GET THE H*LL OUTTA MY WAY because I'm rising to the top and NOTHING will STOP me!!

So now onto the reason for the title. Yesterday I got in my car to go to the gym, got to the light and someone tld me I had a flat tire. . . I think to myself "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOW that's all I need". So I turn around and come home and LC (who is the sweetest) is pulling in at the same time and we go check the tire and fill it up and realize its a slow leak so I make plans to go handle it later. Needless to say I'm still VERY frustrated at this point because something has occurred to try and distract me, but I decide I'll just sit in silence for a minute then move one. Well while I'm sitting here I pull up my Facebook and start reading my notifications and to my SURPRISE I have a message telling that I'M A WINNER!!

WHAT?!? HUH?!? WHO ME?!?!

Yeppers I won a contest and not one where they pull you name out of a hat, instead it was a Facebook contest that 6 Pack Fitness had where they requested fitness pictures and a little explanation to go with it. 

Here's the picture I submitted along with my story explaining the before and after. . . . and they PICKED me as a WINNER!! I was immediately thrown into a better mood because the Lord was letting me know that what he's been telling me is TRUE, that I am a WINNER and VICTORY is mine!! LC was very happy for me along with my sister & my friends. Here's where the foolishness comes in. Now like I said earlier I LOVE my friends & family unconditionally BUT sometimes certain people can really TAKE ME THERE!! 

I called my mom this AM to tell her the Good News about my win and she IMMEDIATELY has something negative to say!?!? I mean who knows where something so simple as a Facebook contest win could go. Instead of seeing that she starts talking negative and after 2-3 words out of her mouth I politely tell her GOODBYE and hang up the phone because I can't let that negativity into my life and my preparation!! Again I will say I LOVE my mom and would do anything for her and I know she'd do anything for me. . . BUT I have to be honest . . . through this entire journey she has been LESS than supportive. I know she wants me to be successful in my endeavors and I also know everyone doesn't understand why I do what I do and I can respect that. With that being said you can at least be happy for me when I celebrate a victory no matter how small or confusing that victory may be to you its a VICTORY to me!! 

The reason I'm writing this is to RELEASE myself of these demons that I know have been holding me back because after winning yesterday I said "Why Me". For some reason the less than positive support that I've received over the years has left me with "issues" when it comes to certain things and thinking I'm "WORTHY" sometimes is a problem for me. I will admit that I'm getting much better with this because I AM WORTHY!! If I Trust & Believe in the Lord and what he's been laying on my spirit then I have to know & believe I AM WORTHY!! So with that I will end this and release these thoughts from my mind because. . . .

VICTORY IS MINE SO SAITH THE LORD!!!!

KQ. . . 

5 Days & Counting . . . .

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh BUDDY!! We are in the final stretch for Show #1 for 2011, sooooooo here goes my favorite saying

LET'S GET IT!!!

Well if I haven't mentioned my plans for the season let me go ahead and take a brief minute to do that now. This the Lord has BIG PLANS for me and I'm just following his directions. So part of those plans include participating in several shows, really throwing myself into my fitness career & spending time with (and building) my family. 

Now let's tackle the first thing I mentioned which are my shows. I'm planning to do 5 (maybe 6) shows this year and they are as follows:

APRIL

April 16th: WBFF Fitness Atlantic

April 30th: FAP New England Championship

MAY

I really don't plan on doing anything because this year we'll be celebrating LC's 40th Birthday and that's HUGE so I want all my focus on that. But don't get it twisted I will be seriously maintaining my physique because per LC's repeated suggestion (harassment, LOL) I'm doing a few photoshoots.

JUNE

June 25th: WBFF Eastern US Championship

JULY

Again nothing BIG planned but I may participate in some events at the Europa Battle of Champions here in Hartford, CT. There's going to be a HUGE expo and some other events going on so no worries I've been diligently working on getting myself involved in some form or fashion :) So I'll keep ya'll posted on that

AUGUST

August 13th: FAP Carolina Championship (this is a maybe)

August 27th: WBFF World Championships!!

I'm REALLY excited about participating in the WBFF Federation and I really want to involve myself in as many events with them as possible because I see BIG things on the horizon with them.

NOVEMBER

November 5th: WBFF New England Championship. . . This show is a MUST b/c it's being put on by my trainer Kevin Topka who is THE BOMB DIGGITY!! He has gotten this bullheaded chick on the right path and I know he will keep me there.

Now I know that's a hectic competition season but I think its perfectly spread out to keep me going and I've got a strategic plan to function at a new maintenance weight which is going to mean a World of Difference for me from here on out. And on top of all of this I'll be spending more time dedicated to my blog & building my business. As I told ya'll previously I am INSANELY thinking of and creating recipes for my Clean/Healthy Eats which is something I'm adapting from here on out. I've actually eaten very healthy for the past several years but we're going to take it a step further and clean things up. So in an attempt to do that I'm flooding myself with an abundance of information regarding certain ways of eating so I can create a plan that will work well for "me" and my family. In the process I will most definitely share with you my creative successes & failures, cause I'm sure there will be many of both LOLOL!! Anyway, its getting late and I'm tired and low on energy so I'm gonna do a lil more blinging on this suit then take it Doooooooooooown and call it a night :) 

Love my sweets 

KQ!!

I have a case of the 4 P's and I LOVE IT!!

Prayer

Passion

Positivity

Persistence

I'll first begin today's blog by saying . . . I have 9 days until I step on stage and STRUT MY AWESOMELY HOT STUFF and I can't wait!!! It's bout to be on and popping like a pot of neck bones (what do you expect I'm a Kuntry Girl, LOL)
Now onto the REAL subject & reason for today's blog. . . The 4 P's . . .PRAYER, PASSION, POSITIVITY & PERSISTENCE!! I am having a SEVERE case of them and I'M PROUD OF IT!!

PRAYER

I mean helloooooooooooo this one speaks for itself but I'll speak for it and on it for a brief minute. Prayer honestly & truthfully CHANGES THINGS!! When I pray I'm able to clear my mind and turn things over to God (or whomever you worship) and remove it from my hands and leave it in his. A quiet moment of prayer allows me to see things that he has for me in my future and that is why I know without a shadow of doubt Victory Is MINE!! I know now more than ever I'm walking in the path & direction he has set forth for me.

PASSION

Ohhhhhhhhhhh Boy . . . if you know me you know I am a VERY PASSIONATE person!! In life, love and any activity/endeavor I involve myself in. Listen when I do or feel something, I do it and feel it to the FULLEST . . . I'm talking the 10th Power here!! Let's take health & fitness for example, man oh man when I get to talking about my story, my journey, my desire to help others, workout or nutrition tips, etc I get FIRED UP!! It happened to me just a few days ago in the gym, I was feeling sluggish as I pushed through my workout and a new client approached me about her goals and what she's been doing and I immediately perked up and was on the rampage. Unfortunately my passion can sometimes back fire on me because I'm guilty sometimes of wanting things for people MORE than they want it for themselves and that often drives me insane. I tried to tell myself to stop feeling that way & stop taking it personal and feeling so deeply about their success but the Lord (in prayer) told me NO. . . this is who you are and its what makes you a special person. So I'm going to keep being passionate about myself & my success along with the success and happiness of those around me. And if someone has a problem with it . . . welllllllllllllll I dunno what to tell you because this is me and I will be Kenisha Q. Smith to the FULLEST at all times :)

POSITIVITY

Ya'll this is one that was VERY hard for me and that's no lie. I have been insanely guilty in the past for having not so positive thoughts. I'm not sure if they can totally be labeled negative but they for sure weren't positive. Insane amounts of self doubt & questioning one's self existed in my life. An example of that was sharing my story with you all and thinking "no one cares what I have to say, they don't wanna hear my opinions, experiences, feelings, journey, etc". Well that coulda been the furthest thing from the truth come to find out. The non-positive . . .ok we'll just call it what it is . . . The negative thoughts were even affecting my progress as I prepared for this show and the ones in the past. OHHHHHHHHHH MY!! I can't even count how often I put myself down saying I wasn't "good enough, muscular enough, lean enough, that I had no business up there with those other women" and everything else you can think of under the sun. It was so bad I was getting on my own nerves and it took a few special people (Lawrence, Kendra & Carmen) to rip me a new bootay hole and set me straight. After being torn from limb to limb by all of them I had a serious prayer session and those thoughts have been the furthest things from my mind for awhile now and I have experienced nothing but Positive results & progress since then!! So Thanks ya'll . . . I Love all of ya'll to pieces and you know it!

PERSISTENCE

Simply I can put this by saying . . . . I WON'T BE STOPPED!! I will continue pushing forward until I reach that place that has been set forth for me and I know it's within arms reach. And guess what . . . when I get there I will KEEP ON KEEPING ON and further advancing myself and challenging myself because that's what it's all about. Life is a continual mountain that you have to climb and once you reach one pinnacle/goal you set another goal and you strive until you reach it and keep going. . . If I wouldn't have done that I would've never experienced the success I have to this point and I'm not just referring to the weight loss, I'm referring to every goal I've ever accomplished in my life and will accomplish. 

Well this blog has kinda extended a lil past what I expected it to but ya'll know I'm a blabber mouth so I'm sure you're NOT surprised. . . I will bid you farewell as I kick my feet up, work & relax until I have to go train my clients and workout this afternoon.

KQ

ps . . .there's an extra one that's NOT exactly a P but I made it one . . .

I'm becoming a PHOODIE

(this is the KQ way of spelling Foodie. . . 

hey why else have a blog if you can't be creative with your word creations)

I LOOOOOOOOVE TO COOK & CREATE and I love to share that with my friends and family. I won't dive too deep into this one right now because I'm working hard on trying to start dedicating a portion of my blog to EATS. . . just know some goodies are for sure on the horizon in this category!!

Love U My Sweets!!